sorry seems to be the hardest word. no seems to be just as hard, to me at least.

many times, instead of a simple 'no', i come up with a convincing excuse to reject people. i despise myself for this, why can't i be the honest jeremy i want to be, and just say no (and the real reasons for 'no')! because i'm afraid people will think i don't take them as true friends? but shouldn't true friends be honest with each other... what irony. maybe they aren't true friends after all, just passing acquaintances that'll sooner than not fade away from familiarity into oblivion. and the next time he/she appears before me, it'll take a few moments to dig out a name from the recesses of my brain that'll match the face. can't be staying in close contact with everyone i know eh?

no, no, no, no, no! not too difficult, is it?! i'll like it more if people say no straight to my face, rather than shooting out a thousand and one excuses their creative minds managed to conjure. i promise i won't take it personal.